haix. my heart is aching and i feel like dying. what had gone wrong with me man??
today was a very very terrible day for me. hate it! :(
This morning chatted with riccia on phone. haix. i am so irritated by the way she speak to me man. so fierce and always shoot me. haix. i am already not in very good mood le still being shoot.. thats not i want.. but i kept quiet coz i dunno how to protect myself..but does she know the way she speak is very hurting? haix. nvm. forgive and forget. coz i know she is having pms and her mood also not very good bah coz of her super boring job & horrible boss. know i am super blur but really cant help it. retard.. i guess today the way i speak have also been quite hurting also bah.. This i really have to say i am sorry. thats not myself & not serious with what i say.
Today i went to raymond ang house and lost $10 to shi jing. what the hell man. haix. so unlucky. seriously this is the first time i lost. haix. i really had not lost b4 playing blackjack. but i guess nobody wil believe this bah accept my parents and mother side cousins. so today is the first time but then when i reach home play with my family i win back the money again. i win my mum $8 and my brother $109.. haha win my brother $109 man... pro rite... but i only ask from him $19.. coz he is my brother mah thats why cant take all.. just recoup my lost can le.. haha.. so today is counted as got lost mah?? hmm i wil count it as yes..not my luck bah.. nowadays have been really down on luck and sad coz of everything. yesterday stil realised that i lost $50... haix.. who will cares for mine this $50 coz is not them who lost.. but this $50 can make me heart ache man.. hope is me who count wrongly but is really a low possibility. haix. suan le. brooding over it is pointless.
Tml chia is leaving le.. haix.. 4 years then come back.. so thats means 4 years later then i can see him.. haix.. another thing that make me so sad... haix he is going there to study... australia.. so far.. if i have the money i will also go there le.. but too bad i am a poor little ger who have no money to further study abroad. well well well... we will see how 4 years later things gone. may everyhting goes well for u... take care.. know he can do it de.. too bad he goes b4 the day we take results and cant have the last glance of him.. now muz wait till 4 years.. thats really really long.. :( .mu.
