aRggg... breaking down soon. shattered into pieces. sigh. hais.
Wat happen? wat happen to me today on court? my goodness. i feel tat i am worst then a crippled.
I played so badly. really so badly tat i dun even knwo wat am i doing. It seems like suddenly my mind blank out. My spiking sucks First ball also cannot make it. Easy easy ball i save until like shit. Wats wrong man?? fang shou is the worst of all. Totally like shit. So wats the use of me inside the team? i am only there to cause my team to lose.
Wat if today match is a real match whereby if we win TP we will be in top 4 and if we lost we are out. I will really have no face to face anyone there man. hais. I feel tat i am such a failure. Good for nothing. Seriously cant make it well for anything. sigh. Sometimes how i hope i am not inside the team.
Jus now xiao wei said bee chin fang shou also not bad, she also can play subset, ask her play. At that moment, my heart sank. i am so sad. i feel tat i was being lookdown on. Which i hate it !! hais. but no choice. i am really lousy.
A loser.
breaking down crying in the dark street.
